I have felt pretty decent for most of this year. I haven't been on a die-hard anti-Candida diet, but I've certainly been careful not to eat much sugar or carbs. Going balls to the wall with an anti-Candida diet can just be too difficult sometimes, so I've settled into a pattern of being reasonably strict without being gonzo. In other words, I allow myself to have a treat now and then; maybe even more regularly than "now and then." But I'm scared to cheat too much because I know how easily it can cause the misery to return. I fear that misery, and I don't want to feel it again.
It's been a while since I've felt any of the symptoms that tend to warn me that the shit is about to hit the fan. My usual early symptoms include constant headaches, sinus issues, jaw pain, stomach gurgling, and a few other things. Even though I haven't felt a return of those common symptoms, I've had what seems to be a mild case of optic neuritis for about ten days. While I admit that it seems mild, it has worried me enough to write a new post here.
If you google 'optic neuritis,' you'll find a bunch of pages about Multiple Sclerosis because optic neuritis tends to be one of the common predictors of MS. Having said that, I want to make it clear that I am not worried about MS. Even though I've already had two bouts with optic neuritis in the last five years, I'm not worried because I don't think of MS as an illness. Rather, I think of MS as merely a symptom of serious Candida overgrowth. Now, I admit that I may be wrong about this, but it makes sense to me, so I'm going to keep believing it.
Because I used to trust modern medicine. Just like you, I used to go to doctors whenever my body seemed out of order. But the doctors never fixed what was wrong with me. Over and over, doctors failed to even recognize what was wrong with me. Yet they would treat me for something anyway, usually with prescription drugs, and it almost always ended up making me worse. That's basically the story of my life with doctors.
Eventually you gotta add it all up and come to the conclusion that modern medicine is not medicine at all; it's a system of pushing poisonous substances on people who don't know any better. It's legalized drug dealing, except these drugs are more dangerous than illegal drugs, and the dealers are less caring than "the man" on the street.
You have to realize that doctors aren't there to fix your medical problems. They are there to treat symptoms with pharmaceuticals; they are there to make believe that they are smarter than everyone else. You have to realize that doctors are not the answer to your problems; they're most likely the cause of your problems. Most doctors are simply expensive dope dealers, who are peddling shit that is worse than heroin. It's worse for your body, and it's probably just as addictive. It also costs a lot more money than street drugs.
In March of 2009, I finally had enough of their ineptitude, after two courses of antibiotics destroyed me, making every moment of my life totally miserable in 50 different ways. This is when I started looking for the real solutions to my illnesses. I don't let doctors touch me anymore, and I never will unless I have some kind of illness or injury that I know I can't fix on my own. Even then, I won't trust them, and I won't take their word for anything.
But back to optic neuritis... My current bout with what seems to be optic neuritis is strange because it's in my left eye, and it still hasn't been nearly as serious as the other two times this has happened to me. With each of the two previous fights, the optic neuritis was in my right eye, and it was much worse.
I don't know what to make of it all right now, and I just hope it doesn't get worse. But since it's here, I have to interpret it as a sign that I should take better care of myself. That means making a real effort to put real food into myself. That means forcing myself to drink a ton of water every day. That means using a little more discipline than usual.
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